i blame people for my impatience

Why do I already feel like the baby is so late when she's only technically a little over a day late right now? People. People have been bugging us about why the baby hasn't been born yet for over 2 weeks. People were stressing the birth of the baby since a little after Christmas. The due date has been January 12 since the beginning. Mentally, the due date has been December 30 since Christmas thanks to people stressing the issue. I blame people for my impatience.

I've already expressed my anticipation in a blog post from January 5, 2011 titled  "like a kid at christmas" (Click the link to read that blog post). Waiting for the birth of my baby is like a kid at christmas...only now, it's like it's on steroid.

Christmas Eve feels like the longest day of the year, especially to a kid. Itseems like Christmas will never come. The positive/negative of birth (as I mentioned) is that it's generally undetermined.To make matters worse, I have convinced myself that the baby will not be born until the last possible day (the doctor will let us go 2 weeks before induction with some qualifiers that could push it a little sooner.) Granted, I could be completely wrong and she could come sooner, but in my mind (it's a mental battle), she's coming two weeks late.

Add to that the 2 weeks people were stressing and that's like 28 straight days of Christmas Eve! If she actually goes to that point, that will be quite miserable.

Could you imagine that anticipation as a kid for 28 straight days? That would be awful. I wish people didn't start stressing so early, making me stress the issue so early.

I know I can't really blame others for my impatience, but it doesn't make what I've said untrue. All that being said, impatience is my problem, and I'm working on completely giving it to the Lord. I do trust God for his timing. I just need to do a better job of getting out of the way.