tired

As most of you know, I love being a dad! I enjoy every moment I get to spend with my beautiful little princess. I could hold her and kiss her all day long. If I could go back and do it all over again, I'd do it 100 times out of 100. I love my daughter! In fact, I never even knew that I was capable of such love. But that's not the only thing I never knew that I was capable of.

I never knew that I was capable of being so tired. I haven't had a full night of sleep since my daughter was born. I can't complain because I've gotten much more sleep than my wife. But that doesn't mean I'm not tired. This is one of those things that you're always told about but you can never really grasp until it happens. It's such a weird reality considering the fact that my daughter does just about nothing beyond sleeping. It doesn't make sense that my most tired state in life involves a baby that sleeps all day. But she has to feed at a minimum of every few hours, so sleep is always broken up.

Pre-baby, if I ever felt this tired, I would take a nap or go to bed earlier to make up for it. But in the baby era, this is not necessarily an option. I work full-time. When I get home from work, I want to spend time with my family. Later at night, I feel responsible to stay up with the baby (if necessary) to give my wife a break.

I'm not even sure this blog makes sense. After all, I'm so tired while writing it that my eyes keep losing focus and my mind checks out.